It was 95' a mother was in agony, the hospital was filled with cries.
She was born that day, the day after St George's. Nobody knew what a life was going to begin, for an innocent blonde haired girl. A normal family life, an older sister, father was in the Territorial Army and mother was a cleaner.
12 years went by and the blonde haired girl had discovered depression, aggression, obsession and the need for expression. The other girls from school would call her fat and stab her back with mean cruel words which crumbled her brain and made her believe she was completely insane. Sick in the toilet, food being wasted, and champagne down her thr
This world is crazy, wild, strange,
Some people don't notice things in life like I do,
Money, family, sex, drugs, work, change,
So much going on behind closed doors, so true.
Cheating, lying, stealing, abusing, breaking,
Teachers, children, police, parents, polititions,
Teenagers, rich, poor, all secretley creating,
This world that is breaking.
You can pretend not to know what is happening,
Fake smiles held up with blackmail or fear,
Then there is those who don't even notice, those are the reason I am crying,
The truth is never going to dissapear.
I am not innocent myself, nor am I unaware.
The human race's basic instict is survi
Trapped in a strange illusion, born knowing the truth but growing to believe lies,
trapped in a world of confusion, Like a constant drumbeat that never changes,
Or a book filled with white blank pages, a mind blocked by blurry cages, an audience watching empty stages.
Sitting in a snowy field when the skies are bright and clear, watching life like its a movie from birth till death,
The thoughts of going insane are your worst fears, Letters, colours, memories are not clear,
The space between dreams and reality are far too near, it never stops it will never dissapear.
A frosty glass window blocks reality, forget the ways and laws of hum
A never ending misery by GeorgeyBoxall, literature
Literature
A never ending misery
Never get your hopes up high,
'coz in the end everything and everyone dies,
Doesn't matter how good you are or how hard you try, what goes around comes around is one fucking lie.
Never climb a mountain you will always fall, never get rich you won't be satifised with your thousand pound pool.
Don't try hard in classes, you will get bullied in school,
It doesn't matter how good you are you will get nothing good back atall.
Memories will always fade, feelings will always change.
People will let you down, smiles eventually turn to frowns,
Nothing happens for a reason, the world was a coincidental explotion.
Now we all have to suffer unwa
It was 95' a mother was in agony, the hospital was filled with cries.
She was born that day, the day after St George's. Nobody knew what a life was going to begin, for an innocent blonde haired girl. A normal family life, an older sister, father was in the Territorial Army and mother was a cleaner.
12 years went by and the blonde haired girl had discovered depression, aggression, obsession and the need for expression. The other girls from school would call her fat and stab her back with mean cruel words which crumbled her brain and made her believe she was completely insane. Sick in the toilet, food being wasted, and champagne down her thr
This world is crazy, wild, strange,
Some people don't notice things in life like I do,
Money, family, sex, drugs, work, change,
So much going on behind closed doors, so true.
Cheating, lying, stealing, abusing, breaking,
Teachers, children, police, parents, polititions,
Teenagers, rich, poor, all secretley creating,
This world that is breaking.
You can pretend not to know what is happening,
Fake smiles held up with blackmail or fear,
Then there is those who don't even notice, those are the reason I am crying,
The truth is never going to dissapear.
I am not innocent myself, nor am I unaware.
The human race's basic instict is survi
Trapped in a strange illusion, born knowing the truth but growing to believe lies,
trapped in a world of confusion, Like a constant drumbeat that never changes,
Or a book filled with white blank pages, a mind blocked by blurry cages, an audience watching empty stages.
Sitting in a snowy field when the skies are bright and clear, watching life like its a movie from birth till death,
The thoughts of going insane are your worst fears, Letters, colours, memories are not clear,
The space between dreams and reality are far too near, it never stops it will never dissapear.
A frosty glass window blocks reality, forget the ways and laws of hum
A never ending misery by GeorgeyBoxall, literature
Literature
A never ending misery
Never get your hopes up high,
'coz in the end everything and everyone dies,
Doesn't matter how good you are or how hard you try, what goes around comes around is one fucking lie.
Never climb a mountain you will always fall, never get rich you won't be satifised with your thousand pound pool.
Don't try hard in classes, you will get bullied in school,
It doesn't matter how good you are you will get nothing good back atall.
Memories will always fade, feelings will always change.
People will let you down, smiles eventually turn to frowns,
Nothing happens for a reason, the world was a coincidental explotion.
Now we all have to suffer unwa
^^ This is me at Brighton Pride with some randomers hehe :)
I am engaged to my fiance Jack and love him to pieces <3
Im pretty much a crazy woman who loves to have fun but keep up with my art work aswell as writing. I enjoy free parties, live DJ gigs, festivals, going out meeting people and going cinema, swimming, zumba/aerobics ect.
Current Residence: ALDERSHOT BNB, England Favourite genre of music: EVERYTHING! Jungle, Ambient, Punk, Techno, Trance, Soul, I mean EVERYTHING! Favourite style of art: Painting, sketching, mixed media and collages Operating System: Laptop ATM MP3 player of choice: Ipod Touch ( Old one ) Favourite cartoon character: Rodger Rabbit
Favourite Movies
I collect them all, but I LOVE HORROR + CHEESEY AMERICAN HIGH SCHOOL MOVIES
Favourite TV Shows
SOUTHPARK!! American Dad, Family Guy, Simpsons, Every one loves Raymond, 2 n a half men and.. EASTENDERS!!!
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Soooo many... but Aphex Twin, Chemical Brothers, Placebo, RHCP, Radiohead, Shy FX, The Kooks ect.
Favourite Books
Cannot decide.
Favourite Writers
Thomas Harris + Stephen King + many other thriller authors
Favourite Games
CodMW2, L4D2, all Silent Hill, Sonic Adventure and obviously Pokemon and Super Mario Land on gameboy
Favourite Gaming Platform
Mainly Xbox, Dreamcast, GAMEBOY! PS2! or good old PC
Tools of the Trade
ANYTHING can make art.
Other Interests
Lucid dreaming, PARTYING!!! and the odd tarot reading here and there. But music is my life and going out and enjoying the world!
[I WROTE THIS IN THE PRIORY AS I WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO HAVE A DISSOCIATION DISORDER]
Trapped in a strange illusion, born knowing the truth but growing to believe lies, trapped in a world of confusion,
Like a constant drumbeat that never changes, Or a book filled with white blank pages, a mind blocked by blurry cages,
an audience watching empty stages. Sitting in a snowy field when the skies are bright and clear, watching life like its a movie from birth till death,
The thoughts of going insane are your worst fears, Letters, colours, memories are not clear, The space between dreams and reality are far too near, it neve
ve lost something of mine, it was one of a kind,
It shined and put colors down my spine,
It could be nasty but also divine,
I would really like to find that mind of mine,
My head feels empty and cold, all food tastes like mould,
I have no emotions to unfold, wheres my fucking soul?
Ive joined the gang of nobodies, isn't there somebody?
That will help us on this journey, and put us out of our misery.
We turn to self destruction, forget about our mind abduction,
It's a way to help us function, its not a corruption,
Ive forgotten whats there! Do i care? no!
'coz my heads not fucking there! maybe if people became more aware,
Not stopp
well it has been a while since I have written on this...
currently started an art course and right now at college doing it.
for once this journal entry isnt going to be miserable and deppressing :)
for once in my life I am happy, I now live with my boyfriend away from my fucked up family, my medication is working, and im back into my painting
<3 <3 <3
I love life!!!!!!!! + beer + lots and lots of beer